overwhelming emotions..

I'm getting so many reminders that Teachers' Day is just around the corner and they just seem to throw knives at my heart. At a time where a teacher would want to be reminded that he or she is appreciated, I feel totally rotten. In fact, I don't even feel that I'm a teacher anymore. Helping out some classes at another school further reminds me that I'm not doing what I'm suppose to be doing - teaching.

I've always wanted to be strong but I truly feel so weak right now. Maybe it's the long wait that's draining me. Or perhaps it's just that God wants me to really get into the pain so that I can truly understand what He wants me to understand. Please pray for me as I work through these strong emotions that I'm feeling hard to manage. May my weakness be made strong in His strength.